Last night I dreamed of roses

In my dream, I crossed the street to smell roses planted by my neighbor's mailbox. When I turned around, I saw that I had roses planted by my mailbox also.

My roses were low to the ground, covering it like dianthus. They looked lovely, peach-colored and covered with dew. I thought for just a moment "but roses don't grow on the ground!" but there they were, opening towards the sky like fragrant cabbages.

I ran to get my camera, the scent strong in my nose, and then I woke up.

BellyMonster

Oh god, it's huge.

I miss running

I don't miss chardonnay, or epoisses, or sashimi like I thought I would.

Instead, I miss running. I miss the early morning runs, in the half light, before the heat creeps into the world. I miss having a training schedule stuck to the fridge with magnets, and drawing an 'X" through every run once complete. I miss the way my muscles sing to me after a tough workout when they are tired, worn down, but happy.

My body is on a different journey now, with some very foreign-feeling stuff happening to it. Its a training schedule of a different fashion--and there is discomfort and hard work aplenty! The rewards will be worth the sacrifices. But on a warm summer morning, in the half light, I sniff the air like a dog and wonder.

So darned tired.

First trimester fatigue is no myth! The past three weeks have featured two visits from out of town guests, a trip out of town, and the purchase of a new car. (Mama's first Mercedes)

I am exhausted. I just want to sleep for the next 6 months!

I look about 14 weeks pregnant now, though I'll be 10 weeks tomorrow. Hope to have a belly progress report soon, but I'm too tired to clean the mirror in the bathroom right now.

Only 3 more weeks in the First Tri!

How Zofran changed my life

Dang, that stuff is so good, I want to name one of the beans after it! :D

My OB prescibed Zofran for my morning sickness. Its expensive, but insurance covers it (thank goodness--generic costs $25 a pill without insurance). And that stuff is a miracle. I feel a thousand times better. Although, without nausea to take my mind off it, I'm starting to notice how friggin' tired I am! I'd rather be tired than puking any day. I finally feel like I can enjoy being pregnant. There is still a lot of anxiety involved with getting my life and home ready for twins, but it is lessened so much by simply feeling better.

Right about now the placentas should be starting to take over hormone production, so I should be noticing a decline in symptoms over the next 3-4 weeks. By 12-13 weeks, most early symptoms should be gone!

7 weeks, 3 days: Belly progress report!

Not hugely different from last week, but I'm starting to see a thickening around the waist in addition to the ever expanding belly bulge. I've switched to yoga pants and bought some maternity jeans the other day. I think I look (and feel) about 5 weeks further along than I am.

7 weeks!!!

Wow, it's 7 weeks already! I had my last RE appointment today, complete with hugs from the office staff. I'll see them one more time when I pick up my records before my OB appointment next week.

I saw both beans on the ultrasound again, baby b was hiding behind baby a. I heard both heartbeats loud and clear at about 140 bpm. Wow, do I love that noise. :)

I'm looking forward to seeing a regular OB from now on--so relieved that after everything it took to get pregnant, I've gotten the all clear to move on to a normal pregnancy.

6 week, 2 day belly bump

6 weeks 2 days-- things are definitely starting to spread out down in the belly region. My jeans won't button comfortably, and I can't "suck it in." Looks like I'll be wearing maternity clothes sooner than originally planned.

I just want to eat something...

...without feeling like I'm going to throw up.

Carbs are the enemy. Liquids are my friend--most of the time. Anything with a strong odor is out of the question. And cooking? Heh, forget that shit. Its not happening.

Yet, I'm ravenously hungry 24/7. I get up in the middle of the night, starving, and eat one of the jello cups I've stashed in the bathroom for secret midnight eating, and then puke it back up a half hour later.

This is far and away the suckiest part of being pregnant so far.

Yesterday

Yesterday was both the most exciting day and the scariest night of my life.

At the ultrasound, we saw the heartbeats of our two little beans. That's right folks, it's twins!!! After walking on cloud nine all day, I came home and started bleeding. After a frantic phone call to the doctor (who reassured me that it was probably fine and told me to stop by in the morning for another quick ultrasound) I found myself unable to sleep. Racked with morning-noon-and-night-sickness as well as nerves, I spent about half the night on the bathroom floor.

But this morning I went to the doctor and had another ultrasound and both beans are doing great. Strong heartbeats!

So, I'm taking it easy this weekend, trying not to do too much. Enjoying that I have an excuse for the premature growth of my belly. :)